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08:50pm 12/09/2005
I am 56% Video Game Addict.
I have a Video Game Problem
Video games are a big portion of my life, maybe too big of a portion. They are not a means of social interaction, despite what I might think. I should just go outside.
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10:07pm 05/05/2005
  new job, new woman. new life. lots of new stories. but here is my latest story:

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let me know what you think this story is about
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07:27pm 13/07/2004
  ISPs suck. new email is unearthly@rcn.com just in case someone needs me  
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New story "The Taming of the Wolf"   
10:02pm 12/05/2004
mood: artistic
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09:23pm 06/04/2004
  new story!!

Mark of the Heartless
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09:56am 04/04/2004
  anybody want to go see Hellboy tonight around 7-9?  
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04:54pm 23/01/2004

thought this was funny
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05:41pm 31/12/2003
  i have some shirts i am giving away if anyone wants them say so and come and get them:
Stabbing Westard - shirt from darkest days album
Mudvayne navy blue shirt with old logo
Machine Head shirt from Enter the Dragon tour
that is all i can think of now but there are more
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"why don't you love me?"   
10:48pm 10/11/2003
  tired of holding
holding a hand
that does not hold on
i let go.
good bye
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breaking away from convention....what can be done when we read between the lines   
10:57pm 28/10/2003
  "Enroth's Unification of Church - 103"

very hot and exhausted
nevertheless I was enjoying it.

we would resume
activity, a variety of show

At the end
that kind of situation
is enough of an
emotional - physical strain
that even
a sense of
reinforcement of the idea of
could endure suffering.
09:48pm 28/10/2003
  Burnt by the Softly Rising SunCollapse )  
"those lips are so tempting, but they're your lips, not her lips" - a jazz song i heard on the way home from school   
09:28pm 28/10/2003
  what happened to the revolutions in thought? i read all about different waves of literature, art, music, theater, and thinking but where are they now? i feel as if the last real revolution of style and thought were the beatniks of the 60 and 70's. maybe that is why i feel i relate to them. i have gone through many styles of writing myself, but all based upon older models such as gothic/romanticism, cyberpunk (product of the 80's really), and now finally losing my preconceived notions of style. but in a period of time when the literary greats are determined by the amount of volume sales i find no leaders of new thought. Our literary greats include; Steve King, Anne Rice, Tom Clancy, and other "best sellers." What have they done for the craft of writing? Nothing. King and Rice just write racy and strange stories with talent, and Clancy writes the same secret military organization/court room dramas. What happened to the Dadaism and the Realism and Romanticism? Its gone into hiding underground. Poetry has found a form so loose it is lyrical and full of the same rhythm it was once dictated to just in a new form. So even in poetry these Def poets have come full circle to using the same style of rap influenced rhythm to dictate their poetry. Sounds like classical poetry to me, do you counts the beats I mean the syllables? we need a revolution my brothas!! Fuck all this dull repetition. I think of Poe who gave me the short story, I thank Russian writers who developed the slice of life, and even Mary Shelly for giving us lasting intellectual horror. Where is our revolution? I feel like I am not a character designed for this world. I need something to make me feel real. Why couldn't I live in a time when art was being changed almost every year, music flowed sweeter than nectar, and thinking was the most important issue. These are simply rants that shall fade with time, but until this new wave appears I will always feel this itch under my skin for something new and different.  
07:48pm 21/10/2003
mood: sleepy
holy shit first off they just showed Rob Zombie on VH1 and he cleaned his hair and trimmed the beared. wow. he looked good. ok anyway. thank god this week is slowly going away. friday was nice, it was seeing Texac Chainsaw Massacre and the VNV Nation pastperfect DVD release with erika. Texas was not as good as the first one, i will still stand by that. and the singer of VNV is so fucking awesome. the Q&A segment at the end was like an Evening with Kevin Smith. so much banter. got home from that at like 1am something. woke up at 7 for work. saturday night was HOMEWORK ALLLLLL NIGHT!! till 1am again. sunday was work and erika's surprise party. it went well i think. glad she enjoyed it. monday just flowed by. by i was up till 2:30 am working on homework to turn in for a test today. so now its tuesday night, two midterms down. second half of one thursday, and paper due tomorrow. then i can relax for a bit. got Japanese Assualt today. its a comp of japanese grindcore. its freaking awesome. also got Black Dahlia Murder and Forever I Burn from rory on friday. so much good hardness (yes i mean to say that, haha)
the only one i don't get is the me not being aggressive...   
12:32pm 14/10/2003
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10:29pm 12/10/2003
mood: depressed
At Night - Cure

Sunk deep in the night
I sink in the night
Standing alone underneath the sky
I feel the chill of ice
On my face
I watch the hours go by

The hours go by...

You sleep
Sleep in a safe bed
Curled and protected
Protected from sight
Under a safe roof
Deep in your house
Unaware of the changes at night

At night
I hear the darkness breathe
I sense the quiet despair
Listen to the silence
At night
Someone has to be there
Someone has to be there

Someone must be there
11:11pm 07/10/2003
mood: sick
phew there is too much shit going on in October. i don't know if i can go to alll the concerts i want to. Kreator and Hypocrisy are the two i really want to go to. but then there is VNV Nation thing next Friday. and i have tests/projects or senior shit to do all this month. not to mention i just worked out so hard i almost threw up. i still feel sick so i am going to lay down. i needed to study tonight but screw that. the only good news, it looks like i am 99.9% sure i can graduate in may. i just need to get the classes i have left. what a relief.
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09:06pm 05/10/2003
  just so everyone knows. AIM has become too much for my computer since this newest update. so i won't be on it till i get more RAM and pray that is helps. otherwise, if you need me email me.  
11:15pm 01/10/2003
  just so everyone knows, next Friday i am closing but i will be going to see Kill Bill no matter what. those who can make it, cool, those who cannot i am going alone if i have to. just to let you all know  
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03:35pm 01/10/2003
  this is a new story i wrote. its long so whatever. today i was getting super pissed. i have calmed down now. i hate when i get angry, but old people, and ignorance piss me off.
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09:52pm 28/09/2003
  this weekend went by so fast. though i only worked three days last week it felt like the fastest week. it was nice to see everyone on Friday night, sorry i left so soon i was exhausted for some reason.
Saturday was ned's wedding. it was cool. very different by awesome by its uniqueness. ned is a very great guy. i wish him the best. the wedding and the reception was quick. everything done by 6 something. dropped erika off, let her catch up on sleep. went home and played some video games.
work was boring. i have to close all this week. no life for me. oh well i don't do much anyway. hopefully i can find more concentration and get really good grades this semester. ok that is it.